So as I prepare for a life changing journey, I feel so strange.
Normally, I do not let people so far into my life that they see anything other than strength. Even when I am vulnerable in my writing, there is still a thin layer of wall, stabilized between me and my wonderful readers. Not because I do not love you guys, but, I am human. It is instinct.
I have never felt this before, homesick, not even for my family, but for a friendship. It is a different sort of homesick. What has happened to me? Have I become that weak…..or have I just grown up to realize, what the phrase: “Home is where the heart is…” really means? Either way…I am not the same person that I was even a month ago. What has happened? Could one person really make you question everything, see the light, expand your horizons, make you see beyond your potentials, awaken the gifts from God in your soul, that have been lying dormant within you, for years?
YES! I believe so.
There are excellent friends in this world, who change your entire being with their loyalty. They are always damaged goods…..they’ve been broken before, so they know what it feels like, and they HATE to see anyone else in pain. So their lives become a dedication of positive change. So they treat others the way that they deserve to be treated.
We as humans, have been so conditioned to not trust, because we have been so hurt, but there are people who we can trust. These people are so rare though. They are treasures……I don’t even know if they know this about themselves. Humbleness is part of their character, so they probably would never admit to how priceless they are.
I am homesick, but I am happy that I found home, within a single soul, once upon a time. This home was not a house. This home was a person. I wish society understood this, without seeing it strange. To experience a brand new emotion that is out of the norm for you……..count it a Blessing. It helps you to know what you deserve, in every aspect of life.
I keep looking down the road on my journey, to see if I see this person walking towards me again.
Pitiful………..to some. But to me, when you have experienced that sort of care and emotion within a friendship, marriage, acquaintance, it does not get any better than that…you don’t stop searching for that person…..(metaphorically speaking.) They become another artery in your heart. So no matter how far away they are from you, their influence and being lives within. ❤