Friday, a day of reflecting on the most intimate parts of my life. Also a day of pure realization of so many things…..love, loss, friendship, hurt and pain. Emotions that we experience as human beings all of the time. I went a bit over board with my venting, but I needed the release. I still have a lot in me, but I will let the words flow more articulately.
My journey began the moment that I decided my life needed to be different. From that day on, I have allowed my eyes to be opened up in many different ways, this in return made my heart completely vulnerable, but I’m glad with the results of what has come out of it. Hurt, I may be….but a little more wise as well. I have learned about Love in it’s entirety. Not romance……big difference, but love that we all need….from young to old. Friendship, unconditional understanding, patience, care and forgiveness. All of those words put into action, define LOVE.
The part where we have to feel pain, is vitally necessary. Without feeling the aches of life, we can never reach the human soul. Pain, makes us act and re-act within a different character of ourselves……desperation. We seek acceptance through pain as well as closure. No one wants to be hurt, and have ideas of why things are happening, but not having clear cut answers. It drives a person a little insane. One becomes a blood hound, sniffing around for answers that one may never get.
And so we begin this journey, one step at a time. One foot in front of the other….with our eyes paced on the road ahead of us. We will be ok! That rain storm that you are experiencing, is to water your fertile grounds, to bring fourth vegetation. The sun will keep on shining.
With each passing day, your heart will hurt a little less……I promise! And know that, it is alright to cry.
It is alright , to cry.
Some of those souls who were in your life, did not hurt you because they wanted to. They to were hurting, and had to protect themselves. Do not fault them. Forgive them and know that they are human just like you. Continue to love them, because there is an immense amount of goodness in their hearts. You have seen it.
Express your hurt, but express your forgiveness as well. Stand your ground, but also be not afraid to admit your wrong doings. Do not coward out of that. You will face yourself on this journey, and eventually, you will be content with the reflection looking back at you.
You will be ok.