If even your enemies can trust that you will hold water, that speaks value to your character.
when my life is in shambles, everyone wants to come around for a visit. When my house is unkempt, everyone comes knocking on my door. When my life is stable and sound, very few want to know about it. Whey my home is inviting, only a couple will actually call, ask if the timing is right, and upon a “yes”, then they will come.
A smiling face does nothing for me, but makes me want to investigate why they are so happy, if it is sincere, and if they go home and take off a smile, like a woman kicks off her heals at the end of the day, hangs it up, and exhales. Ohhhhh, the facades that we display…….some real, some deceiving.
Here is one thing that I do regret, not understanding early on, that learning how to forgive, is a never ending lesson. Now that I am hitting quarter life, I still grind my teeth at the true and right scripture of Matthew 18:22, when Jesus is explaining how often we must forgive: ” I say not unto thee, Until seven times: but, until seventy times seven.” Although this scripture is a part of my salvation, I can’t help but to be reminded of how spiteful people have been in my life, how demeaning some have been towards me, how worthless I was made to feel, how I was ignored, how I have had to get physical with the little chihuahua’s biting at my ankles to get a reaction……how in the past that has defeated me, how I’ve had verbal matches with people of God who were some of my GREATEST giants and infamous bullies…..while I was thrown out there in the slaughter made to look crazy, they wore their skirts well, said their “God Bless you’s” with no conviction the following Sunday. I think of all of the heart ache, the perverse advancements from men of God who laid hands on souls and prayed, who were well known, and while they continued to work in a Holy position, preyed on the innocent, knowing if we spoke we’d look like story tellers. How do I forgive all of this? Well for one, Jesus forgave me, and keeps on forgiving me. I also think of the pit of brim stone and hell fire that all of us can fall into if we do not repent and forgive. I empathize, even with my enemies, over this truth. I have learned to keep a safe distance between me, and what I do not need in my life, soaking up my joy. Jesus said to forgive, not to be foolish. I also think of the fact that Jesus loves me so much, that He will sit me down Himself, place a stool under my feet, while He fights for me, and while He is fighting, He turns around and says to me; “To me belongeth vengeance, and recompence; their foot shall slide in due time: for the day of their calamity is at hand, and the things that shall come upon them make haste.” (Deuteronomy 32:35) I find relief in this scripture, because Gods word can not return to Him void, and I have seen Him do things that are not humanly possible, in my defense and in the defense of all of His people. I respect the Lord, because He is able to do what man can’t. “Stay out of jail, by letting God handle it”.……is what I have always said. How sad it is, when the “hurt” comes from within the body. Jesus is mindful of and sees it all.