Looking for my own answers does not mean straying away from the scriptures….well, not for everyone. For me, this meant drowning out people and completely opening up my heart to God. For the past several months my son, husband and I have been through so many things that have nearly taken us out. Either I could retreat or face the battle with God before me.
One thing that God has allowed for me to clearly understand and see, is that ultimately, answers come from Him, alone. He lines us up with His people….not to place our faith in them, but for guidance. Even so, that particular following is carried on so carefully, with the truth in mind that, even “The called”, are still made of perishable flesh. In other words, be careful.
I hit a wall in my walk with Christ, and the ammo to break it down and keep moving forward, was not found through my leaders, my spouse, my child, my family, church members, educators, etc. In fact my spirit screamed: LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!! I lost it a little bit, and I needed to. My break down resulted in an indescribable amount of strength that knocked that wall down fiercely. My spirit was raging, and at the base of that rage, I could hear God telling me to listen to Him. Behind that wall was my freedom, and the only hand that was holding mine as I walked beyond it, was the Lord’s hand. I heard no one else telling me what to do, their takes on faith, no one else telling me how to live and what steps to take according to what they believed.
As we continue to sort through such a frail life, and our stormy season, we are doing so with one truth in mind: As long as the voice of Christ Jesus has precedence over all others, we will not be deceived, our family will only get stronger, and we will walk in God’s will.
In my complete desperation for Christ, and for Jesus to abide in my home, I started running across information about others so desperate for the right kind of love, guidance and acceptance. We think that we are so different, but we are all the same. We are born the same…..with the same needs, into sin, as human beings….what makes us different, are the parents that come together and create us. What separates us, is Jesus. That is the most important factor of being a human being.
As I continue on with my education, it took quite a different and unconventional turn. Since I love reading and especially writing, I have gotten so many tips and titles from people, to read. I am hoping to find the time to read all of the books that I have been introduced to, as well as meeting with some of these local authors. The Blessings of living in the capital…..there are many who read, write and have a healthy appreciation for the arts.
Currently I am reading about “Jonestown”. The events that happened surrounding this town nestled in the Guyanese jungle in the 70’s, lead me to understand the total desperation and fragility of mankind. To be quite honest, it made me realize that, any one of us could fall victim or could have fallen victim to demonic mess, when our spiritual eyes are not turned on.
If you can recall the events of “The People’s Temple”, led by Jim Jones…..over 900 of his followers; men, women and children, were murdered or committed mass suicide, by knife wounds, gun shot wounds, bow and arrow, poisonous injections and the infamous cyanide mixed with punch, in an occult move. They were so demonically brainwashed, that husbands turned on wives who showed any interest of escaping this cult. Children turned on parents, ratting them out to Jim Jones if they found out that their parents wanted to leave the cult. It was such a horrific ordeal, that even the government got involved….leading to congressman Leo Ryan being killed while preparing to exit Jonestown…with some lost souls that he and his colleagues dedicated their time, to help save , from The People’s Temple cult. In fact, many of Leo Ryans colleagues were killed as well.
A vivid picture is painted as you read the stories that derive from this occult group. These souls were ordinary people, in need of the Savior, and without the proper guidance through scripture, they found a man, so demonically lead with communist beliefs , that he actually ordered the deadly cyanide mix, way before he moved himself and his devoted followers to Guyana. His agenda was already set in his mind, before the people ever knew what hit them.
Had these people read their Bibles, had they pressed pause on outside voices for a moment, in order to hear God’s voice, solely , had they prayed…..surely, those young men and women would have grown old, those babies and children would have had grown children and grandchildren of their own today.
God does not tell us to denounce guidance from people…..we need it. However He makes it clear not to place our trust in man. We need the Lord, more than we need people. Sometimes He is telling us to, just listen to Him, with no other voices encouraging our decisions…..ONLY Jesus.
Do you know how easy it is, church family, to make idols out of leaders and the traditions of modern day church? It is very simple, very dangerous, and extremely deadly. You may not literally “drink the kool-aid or flavor-aid” so to speak, but spiritually, you can be destroyed if you do not know how to give time to Christ, so that He can be that voice, that main voice, many times that only voice, speaking to your soul.
Consecration is something that I have been learning more of, heavily. I always knew about it and believed in it, but for every season in life that you go through, many of these lessons need to be retouched and you need to be reminded. Consecrating yourself is not just for Easter, Spring, Holidays, special church events….This is our link to God and Heaven. If you do not believe in Consecration then you will be lead to Desecration.
To avoid carrying on with a novel, I want to close with a scripture:
9 Wherewithal shall a young man cleanse his way? by taking heed thereto according to thy word.
10 With my whole heart have I sought thee: O let me not wander from thy commandments.
11 Thy word have I hid in mine heart, that I might not sin against thee.
12 Blessed art thou, O Lord: teach me thy statutes.
13 With my lips have I declared all the judgments of thy mouth.
14 I have rejoiced in the way of thy testimonies, as much as in all riches.
15 I will meditate in thy precepts, and have respect unto thy ways.
16 I will delight myself in thy statutes: I will not forget thy word.
Lest we forget……………..History most certainly will repeat itself, unless we learn from the mistakes of others.